Spent a week at Camp Pendleton, California! It was LOVELY!

But was very sad to have to leave my fiance there:(. He is being

deployed soon so I won't be able to see him again for about a year :(. 

Also, today is my 21st birthday! :) I hope you enjoy this post!

And I hope it's not too lovey or sad for you all!

 

 

I drove for miles and miles and wound up at your door.

I've had you so many times but somehow i want more.

 

 

it's kind of complicated but i'll tell you this,

the second you're willing to make yourself miserable

to make someone else happy, that's love right there.

 

 

someone once asked me,

'why do you always insist on taking the hard road?'

i replied, 'why do you assume i see two roads?'

 

(i love this quote^^! people often ask why I choose

to date a marine. I usually tell them it's cause I don't

see any other option. I love him too much.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

god gives his hardest battles to his toughest soldiers

 

 

relationships dont need promises, terms, and conditions.

it just needs two wonderful people;

one who can trust and one who can understand.

 

 

 

falling in love is like jumping off a really tall building,

your brain tells you its not a good idea,

but your heart tells you: you can fly

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Love changes you.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A soul-mate is someone who makes you the best "you" that you can be.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Maybe we're too young and I don't even know what's real.

But I know I've never wanted anything so bad.

I've never wanted anyone so bad.

 

 

 

 

 

 

So I wanted to go ahead and do an update since we are starting

 our move tomorrow and I'm not really sure when the internet 

will be back up! I decided to do a color theme! Please comment, 

recommend, subscribe, and enjoy! :)

I cannot say whether things will get better if we change;
what I can say is they must change if they are to get
better. 

Sometimes you've got to fall,
 to realize how far from the  bottom you are. 

Revenge? Nah, I'm too lazy. I'm gonna sit here and let
karma fuck you up. 

After all we've been through I can't believe I'm standing
here breathing without you. 

I fell apart, but I got back up again.

 

When karma comes back to punch you in the face.
I want to be there, just in case it needs some help. 

If I had one wish, it would be to have no reason to make one.

When odds are one in a million, 
be that one.

 The only thing you can count on is, 
time changes everything.

The only way to conquer your fear, 
is to face what you fear most.

Some people were dropped on their heads as a baby.
You were clearly thrown at a wall.

Honestly I don't need someone that see the good in me.
I need someone who see the bad, 
and still wants me. 

I named my goldfish Cosmo and Wanda so I could wish
whenever I wanted to. (me) 

 A man's biggest mistake is giving another man
an opportunity to make his woman smile.

I'd rather live my life knowing I'm not perfect,
than spending my whole life pretending to be.

The world always looks brighter from behind a smile.

If you're brave enough to love someone,
you're strong enough to get over it. 

Don't take me for granted, cause unlike the rest,
I'm not afraid to walk away. 

Don't feel special, I only keep your number in my phone,
so I know not to answer when you call.

I'm the kind of girl, who everyone looks at,
but never sees.

You can tell a lot about a person's character, 
by what they smile about.

 

I know what it’s like to want to die.

How it hurts to smile.

How you try to fit in but you can’t.

how you hurt yourself on the outside

to kill the things on the inside.

the majority of the time, 

a pretty face does not mean a pretty heart.

but sometimes a pretty face hides a lot.

 

 

 

 

 

yeah, i know, she's bleeding, but dont blame it on a knife, 

the only thing that's cutting her is the battle she calls life.

 

I'll start letting my guard down when people stop giving me 

reasons to keep it up

 

 

Trust is like an eraser. it gets smaller and smaller after every mistake.

 

 

I miss the days when tying my shoes was the hardest thing to do.

Now it's learning how to smile when everything inside tells me to cry.

 

 

I drag myself out of nightmares each morning and find there's no relief 

in waking.

 

Behind every bitch is a girl who got tired of being broken.

 

You think you want to die.
But really you just want to be saved. <3

 

 

 

 

I think that at some time we've all thought it's funny

 to call someone stupid or tell them that they'll never get it right,,

 the people around you may laugh at your insult, 

the person you're insulting may also laugh.

 But you don't know what happens when they get home. 

You've never been them so you don't know 

how much an 'innocent' remark actually gets to them 

 

Damaged people are dangerous,
Because they know they can survive

 

 

(i would never wish this on someone ^^ because i 

would never ever want someone to hate themselves

so badly..)

 

 

Everybody is always so fucking “fine”
But we are not.
Sometimes, we are hurt and bruised and

 nearly completely shattered and this, sir,

 is not what one calls fine.

 

 

 

 

Some people are just born with tragedy in their blood.

 

 

 

 

 

You can only put the past away for so long, there will be days it comes rushing back.

 

Sometimes the strongest people in the morning 

are the people who cried all night.

You can only put the past away for so long,

 there will be days it comes rushing back.

 

 

 

 

 

Pain makes people change.

 

i have the thickest skin of anyone you'll ever meet.

no one can say anything about me I haven't heard

a million times before.

 

 

I wish I could show you the hell you put me through.

then maybe for once in your life you could see how it feels to 

be made a fool of, to be made a slut. and to have everyone 

saying shit about you that they knew nothing about. i just want 

you to understand what that feels like.

 

 

 

And all i ever needed was someone to come around and

tell me that I have suffered long enough.

 

sometimes you need to hit that lowest point of being sad,

the point where you can't take it anymore

and you completely lose yourself,

to finally get back up on your feet again.

 

 

Sometimes when we think we are keeping a secret, that secret is actually keeping us. Frank warren

 

Don't judge my journey till you've walked my path.

 

Strong: when a girl has been broken so many times in 

so many ways. and she's hurting.

all she wants to do is cry. and all she can think about

is the people who did it and how much she cares 

for them. and yet this girl still goes out, still smiles,

still laughs, and she acts to make everyone around 

her believe she is happy. and they do.

that is strong.

It is loneliness that makes the loudest noise.

 

She feels like somehow someone always finds a way

to bring her down, like she's never good enough

for everyone and they all just see right through her.

 

 

No amount of pushing people down will

get you where you want to go.

 

The darkest secrets are always the ones closest to home.

Never underestimate the pain of a person because the

truth is everyone is struggling.

it's just some people hide it better than others.

 

Every second is a chance to turn your life around.

Anything that doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.

 

 

(true ^^, because they are proof that i battled myself.

because they are proof that things can get bad.

because they are reminders that i wanted to die.

because they are reminders that i survived

when some didnt.

because they show me i can survive when things 

get bad again.

They show me i deserve to be happy and nothing can 

break me that bad again. )

 

So I'm going to give you some advice...

 

 

 

 

AND JUST BE HAPPY!

 

i dont know what you are going through. 

but trust me when i say this. i have went through shit too.

a ton of terrible, devastating shit. but i am alive. 

i made it through. i took everything hard and i truly 

wanted to die. and there are some days where it all comes

back to me. and all i feel is pain and hurt. but i did survive.

and i know i still will. if you need help. get it. people won't know

you are in pain if you don't tell them. if you feel like you 

cant tell a parent. tell a teacher. a preacher. a friend. anybody.

you can survive too. i know you can. i have faith in you.